You must completely rid yourself of your preconceptions if you want to truly find out who you are. Once you just paint, and do not try to manipulate yourself in order to fit a certain plan or style, that is when you will find what you are looking for. Once you just live, that is when you will find your life.
Oil Painting.
The possibilities seem nearly endless. You start a painting as result of inspiration or even for a required assignment. You start to map out ideas and as you work with this medium more and more you learn that it is essential to start with an open mind. You lay in the foundation with every intention of allowing yourself to completely change them, but inevitably, you have to start somewhere. You work here from inspiration, where ever it may be coming from. At first you try to do what you think you should do, you think things through, and you want it to be "right." But as you learn more about this medium you learn that you need to stop thinking so much, at least at the beginning. You just paint what you are experiencing. Once you let yourself do this, you get more and more comfortable with everything. The longer you paint the quicker and easier it all goes.
Then you get to a point where you have to move on differently. You've been laying in the foundation for so long that you have to really step back and think about what you're going to do. You start using white, making things a little more permanent than before. Your painting starts to really get somewhere. Then it is time for a break. You leave the painting for a while only to come back to dry paint. You feel like you have to start over, it is kind of frustrating. You don’t want to lose anything that you’ve achieved so far but you know you need to move on. So you do. You fight with it for a while and work through the frustration just holding onto hope that you’ll get back to that point where you were when you stopped painting last. This time goes on for a while, depending on the painting. You come back to the point where you are confident and you drop back to that frustration again and again. You start to work more on details, you can rely on what you have set down for yourself and look closely at specific areas.
This process goes on until you are finished the painting. But of course, there is no set standard that tells you when you are finished. You tell you when you are finished, actually a combination of you and your work. You weigh things in your head considering what you want to leave and what you want to change. You will not come to a point where you have made an absolute decision, there will always be something that you still want to work on, or maybe you just enjoyed the process of this painting so much that you don’t want it to end. But at some point, you will finish. And after this point you will be able to look back on the experience by looking at the painting. You will remember the ups and downs and you will appreciate it all for what you’ve learned and what you have enjoyed.
Soon you will start a new painting. It will be hard because you will have to allow yourself to step back into that stage of insecurity. Or maybe you will take a break, try another medium for a while, try something new altogether. But sometime in the future, you will paint again.
Life.
The possibilities seem nearly endless. You start a living as result of your parents. The things you do are either for the purpose of enjoyment or necessity. You start to map out ideas and as you continue to think about your life, you realize that things change, including your mind. And this happens even more than you’ll ever expect. You learn that it is essential to have an open mind. You lay in the foundation with every intention of allowing yourself to completely change, but inevitably, you have to start somewhere. You work here from inspiration, where ever it may be coming from. At first you try to do what you think you should do, you think things through, and you want it to be "right." But as you learn more about this life you learn that you need to stop thinking so much, at least at the beginning. You just do what comes to you. Once you let yourself do this, you get more and more comfortable with everything. The longer you allow yourself to just be the smoother it all goes.
Then you get to a point where you have to move on differently. You've been laying in the foundation for so long that you have to really step back and think about what you're going to do. You start making decisions that will have a more wide scale effect on your life, making things a little more permanent than before. Your life starts to really get somewhere. Then it is time for a break. You leave this mission to figure out and plan your life for a while only to come back to something that is not as familiar as it once was. You feel like you have to start over, it’s kind of frustrating. You don’t want to lose anything that you’ve achieved so far but you know you need to move on. So you do. You fight with it for a while and work through the frustration just holding onto hope that you’ll get back to that point where you were when you stopped working on your life last. This time goes on for a while, depending on the situation. You come back to the point where you are confident and you drop back to that frustration again and again. You start to focus more on details of your life, you can rely on what you have set down for yourself and look closely at specific areas.
This process goes on until you must start anew once again. Maybe you have started college, transferred, gone into the work force, moved, etc. But of course, there is no set standard that tells you what parts of your previous experience to leave behind and which to carry with you. You tell you what to hold onto, actually a combination of your self and your experience. A combination of your mind telling you it’s time for a change and your situation forcing you to make changes. You weigh things in your head considering what you want to leave and what you want to change. You will not come to a point where you have made an absolute decision, there will always be something that you still want to hold on to, or maybe you just enjoyed this part of your life so much that you don’t want it to end. But at some point, you will finish. And after this point you will be able to look back on the experience by looking at yourself. You will remember the ups and downs and you will appreciate it all for what you’ve learned and what you have enjoyed.
Soon you will start a new part of your life. It will be hard because you will have to allow yourself to step back into that stage of insecurity. Maybe you will take a break, try something completely new, and stop thinking about all of this for a while, or try something you had previously left behind. But sometime in the future, you will live again. You will come back to this process of allowing your true identity to show itself. And it will never be the same from one moment to another.
Relationships. (romantic or platonic)
The possibilities seem nearly endless. You meet this new person for one reason or another. You start to get to know each other, basic history and personality and interests. You predict certain things about this person, you predict whether or not you will become close, but as you meet more and more people you learn that it is essential to start with an open mind. You lay in the foundation of the relationship with every intention of allowing the both of you to change, but inevitably, you have to start somewhere. You work here from inspiration, where ever it may be coming from. At first you try to do what you think you will make you acceptable to this person, hopefully not losing yourself on the way, you think things through, and you want it to be "right." But as you learn more about relationships you learn that you need to stop thinking so much, at least at the beginning. You just be who you are. Once you come to a point where you are comfortable to let yourself do this, you get more and more comfortable with everything. The longer you know this person, the smoother it all goes.
Then you get to a point where you have to move on differently. You've been laying in the foundation for so long that you have to really step back and think about what you're going to do. You start committing to the relationship, making things a little more permanent than before. Your relationship starts to really mean something. Then it is time for a break. You leave the person for a while, you get too busy with other parts of your life or you physically go somewhere else, only to come back to someone you have a lot of memories with but that aren’t as current as usual. You feel like you have to start over, it’s kind of frustrating. You don’t want to lose the friendship that you’ve achieved so far but you know you need to move on and just continue to get to know each other. So you do. You fight with it for a while and work through the frustration just holding onto hope that you’ll get back to that point where you were when you used to see each other all the time. This time goes on for a while, depending on the relationship. You come back to the point where you are confident and you drop back to that frustration again and again. You start to work more on details, you can rely on the relationship you have gained and look closely at specific areas.
This process goes on until the relationship is over. But of course, there is no set standard that tells you when it is over. You tell you when it is over, actually a combination of you, your friend/partner, and your circumstance. You weigh things in your head considering what you want to leave and what you want to change. You will not come to a point where you have made an absolute decision, there will always be something that you still want to hold onto, or maybe you just enjoyed this relationship so much that you don’t want it to end. But at some point, it will be over. And after this point you will be able to look back on the experience by looking at yourself. You will remember the ups and downs and you will appreciate it all for what you’ve learned and what you have enjoyed. Of course not all relationships end, but many come to some sort of ending, at least in part.
Soon you will start a new relationship. It will be hard because you will have to allow yourself to step back into that stage of insecurity. Or maybe you will take a break; you will spend more time alone and just become comfortable with yourself. But sometime in the future, you will love again.
So like Danny Kaye said, “Life is a great big canvas; throw all the paint you can at it.”
I don't know Danny, I think Life is an art store with many canvases and supplies. Invest well, and let yourself create.
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